Years later, having been declared in remission and taken off all medications
I could not fall pregnant…
At the time there was no silver lining in my cloud. The future without kids looked bleak.
I did not hope. I was void of all emotions, how can I trust God, where is the faith to believe and keep trying?
Immediately after disappointment, we usually feel negative emotions. Like
Anger, fear and lack of faith. Uncertainty about the future tears are also constant during such time.
It may take a few good months, weeks or months for us to come to terms with our predicaments but that’s when healing truly begins.
Healing did begin for me. I dreamt again
Believe again and hope again.
Now I rejoice in having my precious kids,
Despite the diagnosis
I hoped against hope.
So I encourage you today to stand firm, and sure.
Glimpse your set time ahead.
Though faith may weaver a your heart quavers from fear
Lift your gaze higher to the promise that will one day be real
Grasp firmly to your desires
For in hoping against hope,
Will you triumph over all.
Your partner in hope