I grabbed a magazine and waited my turn in the Dr’s waiting room. I decided against reading and instead struck up a conversation with the lady next to me. We immediately bonded and exchanged tales of our plight. Half way Into the conversation she commented, it’s so lonely though, to which I replied, yes it can be.
I previously shared how lonely infertility can be here; Christmas and waiting:: Although we do have friends and family who care, when it comes down to it the pain of disappointment is all yours, nobody else’s. The trips, appointments for endless test and procedures are all yours. Just you and your partner’s as the case maybe
How do you explain a pain so deep to those who are not in it. How do you explain the constant tears, how do you talk about the ache from that first, second and third loss? It is unexplainably and our reaction to it is can also seem unreasonable.
Loneliness at Christmas is especially pronounced. Sitting at the dinner table with the laughter of nieces and nephews only serves to highlight the empty nest waiting for you back home.
If you feel especially lonely now or at any other time, remember the name ”IMMANUEL”. Meaning God with us.
This is one of the names of the promised Messiah. “God with us.
He is with us
In the waiting room,
At the dinner table,
At the operating theatre,
As we suffer another miscarriage
As we face the questioning stares and audible alterations of others.
The promised Messiah is with us. Holding, soothing, caring and reassuring us.
His presence brings peace, hope, joy and answers.
He was certainly my hope and strength during my wait. I had his presence which gave me strength every step of the way. Some people questioned my lack of intense misery and mistook my inability to conceive as a conscious decision not to have kids. The opposite was true.
I exhibited my pains in his presence and he in turn he infused me with joy for the journey as a result of his presence, the journey was no longer lonely. I can talk with him and pour out my heart to him because he is with me.
Be encouraged today, the promised child is the risen saviour who is always with you. You can count on his present as you journey through Infertility.
Your Partner in Hope