Over the course of my life I have no doubt that an unseen hand has guided my path. From the first time I experienced the pains of Arthritis as a 9 year old, to when I was ran over by a car as a 10 year old.
As a little girl growing up in a Christian home I always felt love and cared for by my earthly parents and my Heavenly Father, but it was during the most trying times of my life as an adult waiting for a child I experienced my God with me moments.
God has been with me, every step of the way. Sometimes I felt him really close, other times I could not perceive him.
I never doubted that he was with me when I was hurting and really needed a hug, I knew he was there.
The pain of not knowing when or how was more than the physical ailment. At times I screamed other times I was quiet, my pain etched on my face, tears muffled by sadness.
I struggled with the pain often not being able to do simple chores, how was I supposed to take care of a child.
I reasoned that maybe God didn’t want me to suffer anymore pain than I already had, hence the delay of not having a child.
Somehow he encouraged me with this thought which gave me peace in the moment.
When I eventually had my first daughter and my body collapsed with pains after 3 months, not being able to physically hold or carry my longed for baby, it was those lonely nights of tears I felt him close that I knew without doubt that Immanuel “God With Us”, had a bigger plan for me, he was with me every moment of pain I felt.
When I was told I had to be on a very potent drug to control arthritis after the birth of my second daughter.
An encouraging word or text message or a simple gentle breeze will come to remind me that I am not alone.
God has been with me from the day I stepped into this world.
As you tread this sometimes lonely road of infertility wondering who have you got, or how your story will end, remember that This Child of Bethlehem was the promised company to us in our time of need.
As you celebrate this Christmas morning, open your heart to him and he will be with you till the end.
Your Partner in Hope