The decision to stop seeking treatment can be a painful one and one I am thankful I did not have to make.
But I did give it a lot of thought see my post “Do You Call It Quit”?
I explored what it would be like to live without being a mum. I remember thinking I can never not be a mum. It just won’t happen, I have to have a child somehow but consoled myself with thoughts like, it will be fun. I will travel the world unhindered.
At one point we did discuss the fact that we might consider other option if at 40 I was still not pregnant. Luckily I did not have to make
I cannot imagine the ache Lisa Riley might have gone through to make that painful decision.
She was undergoing treatment and was told she should consider stopping further treatment as the quality of her eggs were very low to produce any viable outcome.
She describe the moment as a “blow”.
The Process of grieving and healing
If you are facing the prospect of calling it quits with treatment and giving up hope of being a parent, for whatever reason. There will be a grieving and a healing process.
My friend who gave up her hope of being a parent refers to the grieving process as a burial ceremony, heart wrenching extreme loss.
When she came to the realization that this is it., the hope of never carrying her own baby, of never having to experience anyone call her mother,
The pregnancy hormones will never buzz through her body. (She was not open to adoption or other means of becoming a mum).
She had to mourn the future she will never have. She grieved for a long time then began the healing
She described the healing process as a rebirth a new beginning a rediscovering of herself and a world of endless opportunities.
This discovery was a springboard to other adventures one that led her true purpose.
She knew she was healed when she can look at a pregnant woman and not well up with tears
I don’t know how your story will end, But I do hope it ends with you having a baby of your own.
I do also hope that if you come to the point of making the painful decision to give up trying you will find peace in the process and discover your true worth.
You will come to understand a deeper sense of belonging and that we cannot be restricted by or defined by our situation, but become stronger, better by it.
Stay the course, do what you have to do, but above all, believe, pray and have faith.
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